I remember carrying my son
Two months old and sleeping
Into wayward pubs and clubs
In search of a wayward mother
Bewitched by poker machines
And the scent of an easy win.
I remember the humiliation
Of asking doormen and barmen
If they had seen her
Sitting zombie-like at machines
feeding her constancy
and poor self-esteem.
I remember her excuses
Which she chose to pass from memory
As easily as passing wind,
Each lie another flatulent thought
Already forgotten in the coverup.
I remember all my tears
and my son sleeping quietly
unaware of the storm
that surrounded him
as dreams of happy families
were sundered from within.
My first wife was a compulsive gambler. It was not a pleasant time in my life, and is not fondly remembered. But it is remembered, by me, at least.
Steve
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Man. This is heartbreaking. For each one of you.
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Thanks, Tara. It’s in the past, now, but it still hurts to think about it. Was time to vent.
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I understand. Addiction affects so many more than just the addict.
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Very sad ……Glad it was all in the past, although its memory might hurt once in a while
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Thanks, follypen. Yes, sometimes it still hurts.
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