Rebirth.

Yesterday was the three-year anniversary of the worst day of my life. Those of you who are regulars will know that I celebrated (rather insanely) by walking 24 kms. But before I did that I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and had an epiphany. Despite the fact that three years ago I lost EVERYTHING that was dear to me, that I’ve been near crippled with depression and anxiety ever since, that I tried to kill myself, that I’m still undergoing therapy to recover from PST–I am a better man now than I ever was before.  I have accepted … Continue reading Rebirth.

Finish Me. A poem.

Take that knife, that blade so sharp Plunge it deep and end it all No, you’d rather tinker, play awhile Remove strips of flesh, one at a time Rather hear begging, screams, plaintive cries Rather grin at my pain, lick the blood that drains You have me where you want me, victimised, restrained You have stretched this out, to feast on my pain So finish me, just take my life And bring an end to all this strife Continue reading Finish Me. A poem.

Ignorance Is This. A poem.

I ignore her when she’s near Easier to build walls of insecurity Defences built on shyness and rejection fears So I talk to other women Because I do not care for them I pretend she isn’t there Why am I so unfair (to myself, to her) I wonder if she ever wonders why? Guess not, I’m just some other guy Who she connected with briefly Forgotten in the landscape of friends, work, uni Here I am: isolated, cold, stalled Wondering why I can’t talk to her at all Yet I hope and pray That she might love me one day Why do I … Continue reading Ignorance Is This. A poem.

Needs and Wants. A poem.

I would put up with Arguments like multiple car crashes Complaints about cash flow shortfalls All the poor self esteem moments and unlikely excuses The never-ending dog hair on clothes That-time-of-the-month obtuseness Late night extended phone calls with girlfriends Every time she says “do I look big in this?” Burnt dinners and replacement take out food Bohemian folk music turned up to 11 Unscrewed toothpaste caps and long hairs in the sink Enduring chick flick Saturday nights Smelly laundry covering the floor Every quirky new age hippie sensibility An opinion on everything that’s often far from mine If she needed … Continue reading Needs and Wants. A poem.